It has been so long (beginning of November) since I have posted, I am not even sure of where to start. I guess I will just jump in with both feet and sort it out later.
These are the things that have flooded my mind and heart for the last several weeks and even months. Trying to navigate the things in which God has placed in my life versus the strivings ofmy flesh seems to be the center of my attention. It has brought some much needed reflection in my life.
As everyone was preparing for the new year and the resolutions that come with that, my mind and heart were on a search for direction. I was at a crossroads. Discontent, disillusion, and deluge of defeat were slowly taking over my mind and my very life.
Through some serious reflections, God was revealing tidbits of myself both positive and negative. Of course, the negative always seem to outweigh the positive. But God was trying to break through to the positive. He was showing me all of the things that HE has worked in my life. All of the blessings. All of the roads traveled for His glory! His working together all things for good. My reflections turned from inward to God-ward. He was softly pointing to the things in my life that were motivated by my flesh and causing the discontentment, disillusion, and onslaught of defeat.
Normally, for the New Year I have a list of resolutions. But everything was put on hold. I had to stop and just try and find some clarity. The New Year came with no resolutions. No goals. Just unsettled musing in my mind and heart. My mind was playing back everything from 2016 and even further back so that I could step forward into the right direction. The Lord’s direction. God IS moving and I want to go where He is taking me. I was facing some hard decisions.
January brought a return to our regular activities, as well as new adventures. Trying to sift through the aftermath of the holidays, recertifications for every tenant, and now working from home, I was not ready to jump back into everyday life of home schooling, Pursue (Bible study), and all the kids’ activities.
I look back now and see that God was setting me up to answer my prayers for clarity and direction.
I was scheduled to lecture for Pursue on 1 Corinthians 2 and God was ready to move mountains. In preparation for my lecture, I inundated myself with studying the Holy Spirit. Read 1 Corinthians 2 and you will understand. God used that lecture to bring direction and clarity in my heart and mind.
Now it is February and I was feeling a bit of pressure because of my lack of resolutions. But God has changed my heart and set new resolutions and none are physical. Although they may outwardly manifest physical things, they are not measurable by anything physical and are not earthly in nature.
2017 is not the year of resolutions for me. It is a year of spiritual revival.
Now the thoughts that flood my mind are very different.
WALKING IN THE SPIRIT.
Thank you to all my faithful readers who have continued to check in the past couple months. You are appreciated! You have kept my blog alive!